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Dream Journal

18.11.2024

I was at some kind of evening uni bar thing with jago and one of the shops on campus was selling Maltese mcflurries. I ordered a McFlurry and then my card wouldn’t work to pay for it. The guy selling them was being very difficult but e suggested I could pay for it online on the uni website, where you usually buy tickets for events etc. It took me a while to find where to pay on my phone but I did and took a screenshot of the receipt to show the guy. As I was showing him the receipt he insisted this now wasn’t okay and he would only accept cash from me. I was enraged, oh this scammer had made me pay online and is now insisting I pay again in cash?? I picked the ice cream off the side and took it- shouting at him that he is a scammer and telling everyone surrounding us how he had made me pay online already and now was insisting on cash, I told everyone in the queue not to waste their time. I was deeply unimpressed.

Now I’m back at the uni bar. Happily I bump into my friends Alfie and Rhiannon (a friend from Australia). We also then met up with Nyama and Elly who were at the bar and Nyama had a sick new haircut. I go into the corridor outside of the bar and Alex H. Is also there!! He is in a big rush and I’m begging him to come in and dance with us. he wasn’t being convinced at all, I sent rhiannon out to talk to him as I thought she might be better at persuading him.

14.11.2024

I was in a supermarket with kitty and felt very peaceful. We were doing a big grocery shop as we were about to go on a week long trip together and needed to take all of our food with us. I found a funny mushroom shot glass and made kitty get it. I also found that quorn had started making fish fingers so I decided to get them to try as well. We finished and were in the carpark and I thought of something or other we had forgotten so I ran back in the store.

Tallulah’s younger sister Rosie was in the store who looked so grown up and scarily like Tallulah. We chatted for a bit and I told her she was looking just like Tallulah.

11.11.2024

(Context- this was 2 days before I had to give an important presentation for my grades and this was a very severe stress dream where my sleep was much disturbed)

I was on a tattoo bed and marshall was tattooing both of the insides of my forearms in a sleeve like way. I’d seen some tattoos on Pinterest the I loved and had decided id take the plunge and get my first tattoos. On my right arm everything was monochrome and it was all the balls from quidditch (Harry Potter). On my left arm just below the elbow I had Harry Potter in the gold font from the start of the films, with a list of words in rainbow colours below that were ‘inspirational’ and linked to the houses/books. These included ‘brave’ and ‘hard-working’. I was feeling happy while the tattooing was taking place and chatting with marshall.

The second the tattooing finished I was appalled. I couldn’t possibly go round with these huge Harry Potter tattoos on my arms, I’d have to never wear short sleeves again. I tried to convince myself I could live with the quidditch balls but I absolutely needed the rainbow words covering or lasered off. Marshall agreed the tattoos were awful and I can’t believe he agreed to give them to me and didn’t try and talk me out of it.

I took the bus home and spent the whole journey freaking out about how hideous the tattoos were and that my parents would hate them and that im a huge idiot.

6.11.2024

i was back at sixth form but i had taken on some kind of organising role at the school in organising things. my old boarding house had a new matron and she was kind of evil and crazy and was putting up loads of abortion is murder propaganda within the boarding house. when she went into her office i tore it all down and ran off with it.

later everyone was getting ready for a school dance. for some reason i was going despite not being a student so i was looking through all my dresses trying to decided which on to pick but unfortunately i’d just done my laundry and a few weren’t dry yet so i was panicking a bit!

5.11.2024

i was doing flyering for my work at some student halls. we had followed someone into the building so we’re on alert about being kicked out as security seemed high. the guy i was working with was being a bit of a prick. he wasn’t putting the flyers under the doors like you’re supposed to and was just dropping them all in the middle of the corridor. we kept arguing about it and i took some photos of him doing it to send to our boss because i didn’t want to be blamed for it.

we did two floors like this then on the third floor from the top the whole floor was like cafes and food things. we walked around for a few minutes as they were all the most beautiful cafes i’ve ever seen. in the end we decided we’d have a break and go to one of the patisseries for a little break and a beautiful pastry. when it was my turn to order i was still deciding what to get. the person serving was a lovely sweet old man. i laughed and told him i hadn’t decided but i wanted something nutty and chocolatey. he said in that case i should have the tart and started to cut me a slice of a hazelnut and chocolate tart. also the whole student hall was very christian- all the names of the shops were related to christianity.

2.11.2024

i performed a lot of terrible improv, it was my first time and it was live on stage- but i didn’t feel too stressed about it. at one point i was playing an elephant

25.10.2024

firstly i was in a futuristic world that had lots of nice beaches and i swam a lot. but people would be killed by the corrupt government who had some special hatred for artists.

i was about to go for a night out with friends but decided i should have a haircut first. piotr volunteered and absolutely butchered me. i had the most uneven micro bangs and insane layers in the back.

24.10.2024

i was on the tube and a poor mummy duck and several ducklings were also on. every twist and turn the little ducklings would fall over and wobble around. i was really worried for them so i scooped all of them up and put them in the seat next to me so i could hold on to them all. later i was at a restaurant with my parents and my mum got served up a dish that looked like fluffy ducklings and i was appalled, she assured me it was actually just a fluffy kind of roast nut and cracked them open to show me. relieved i tried one and it tasted like a hashbrown.

i also went on a bouncy castle at some kind of strange school sleepover situation. someone had peed on the bouncy castle and i was absolutely covered in piss with out any spare clothes.

20.10.2024

elly and kat (two friends of mine) went to a taylor swift concert to cater it amongst over food vendors. online there had been lots of talk of the food being very fancy and all vegetarian. the fancy food kat and elly were serving was yogurt and crisps. someone asked elly for an omelette and she told them she absolutely can’t make them so they were disappointed.

18.10.2024

i made trays and trays of sugar cookies but forgot to get the jam before hand so i baked them all without jam. then i went to a village farm shop but they didn’t have jam? i did get a book though. when i came back home dad had set up a competing farm shop selling eggs, berries and veg (also no jam).

16.10.2024

i was at a house party and the only person i recognised there was my ex. everyone decided to go to a club so we were walking to the club and on the way we were attacked by these monsters that were like heads on baby bodies that could move really fast along the floor at us. i was really drunk but jumped into my grandmas car to try and drive away but people kept trying to break into the car and i couldn’t see where the lock all doors button was. i ended up crashing the car.

15.10.2024

i was at an inter school athletics meet with a girl and two boys from highschool. we were playing some kind of 2 aside football. we did pretty well and our school placed 2nd overall but only the boys got medals. there was also a fair taking place so i had a walk around the fair at the end but i kept losing my rucksack and i was worried about the bus turning up to take us home while my rucksack was missing.

14.10.2024

i was shopping with my partner in an american store. i found these cute frilly mini shorts that were on sale for $1-2 each. i picked out 3 pairs and a cute top. we went and paid and as we were leaving the shop i realised i’d been charged $220!!!

i inspected my receipt and the sale hadn’t been applied, things i hadn’t bought were on it and i’d been charged harry potter tax? we went back into the store and i got the discount applied and the things i didn’t buy removed. i asked what on earth the harry potter tax is and was told it was to fund a harry potter festival the store was doing. i asked to opt out and was told it wasn’t possible. i asked if it was mandatory and she said no so i told her in that case i am declining and i had it removed from my bill as well. success.

somehow we arrived at my partners place of work and they were teaching me how to use the coffee machine for customers. i was excited as thought this would be good to put on my cv. they sent me down to the basement to bring up some new coffee beans as we ran out. the basement was filled with soo many types of beans i was completely overwhelmed, dark beans, light beans, fruity beans, citrus beans. i spent ages reading all the packages and stressing knowing the customers are waiting upstairs. my partners boss came down and told me off, he grabbed the last bag of ‘standard beans’ and went back up to deal with the customers.

9.10.2024

i was moving flat within an apartment complex, my parents parents were both there helping me take boxes through the lifts to my new flat. The new flat was absolutely packed already with small tables, chairs and stools- i made a joke about it being like kittys flat (a friend whsmith a love for furniture). then i discovered the gas hob had been left on since the previous tenant left with a pan on top. this worried me and i attempted to turn the hob off but nothing seemed to work.

somehow i was now walking on a sandy path through dunes somewhere sunny. i was walking in a large group but only really talking to one guy. he was in search of seeing a cray fish or a cuttle fish of some kind that was sentimental to him.

when we got the the beach we were searching in the corals in the water, luckily we found one pretty quickly! it was very cuttlefish like and covered in swirly rainbow patterns.